At some point in life we all have to face our fears, but I never thought that this moment would come so soon. maybe I should stop and start admitting that I'm not doing alright at all. I wanted to surrender everything including myself to the universe and not coming back anymore. My heart is exploding and I am done with picking myself up again and again. I am falling apart because the rotten roots have been pulled up. I don't want to do this anymore, I am not capable of doing this anymore.
Anxiety already consuming me and started destroying my inner peace. The saturation point of mine had been reached unintentionally and I am at a stage which no more romantic gesture can be absorbed. I am reluctant to be able to feel anything and slowly losing myself. I don't want my mouth curved but with an ironic smile. I don't want to get upset but just sitting there feeling like something is stuck in my throat and give life a blank stare. I don't think I can fight this anymore. Could someone please tell me why is life always testing my capacity to adapt before advancing me?
When I think about you, it is always the good things that hit me. I want to remember when you make me smiled and hug me tight when I was in tears. Because it is you, at the very least, I knew that I would come back to you regardless. You are always the first person that I turned to when I needed someone. The more questions gnawed at me as we spent more time together but never had I gotten any answer. Maybe I am guilty of trying to work things out when I was not supposed to.
How am I supposed to learn to grow as a person without you ..
Anxiety already consuming me and started destroying my inner peace. The saturation point of mine had been reached unintentionally and I am at a stage which no more romantic gesture can be absorbed. I am reluctant to be able to feel anything and slowly losing myself. I don't want my mouth curved but with an ironic smile. I don't want to get upset but just sitting there feeling like something is stuck in my throat and give life a blank stare. I don't think I can fight this anymore. Could someone please tell me why is life always testing my capacity to adapt before advancing me?
When I think about you, it is always the good things that hit me. I want to remember when you make me smiled and hug me tight when I was in tears. Because it is you, at the very least, I knew that I would come back to you regardless. You are always the first person that I turned to when I needed someone. The more questions gnawed at me as we spent more time together but never had I gotten any answer. Maybe I am guilty of trying to work things out when I was not supposed to.
How am I supposed to learn to grow as a person without you ..
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