I'm bored talk to me.

I am always thinking about something however I only share my thoughts when I feel like exploding, only when I can't take it anymore. not sure it is a good or bad thing but my brain is programmed in such a way that it is constantly processing life and I can't stop it! I'll question myself from my own thoughts from time to time, drowning in thoughts because I need to find myself at least an answer to the whys. I always wish that I could first realise what my problems are before the others point it out to me. To a certain extend that they say this is a sign of self doubt and self hatred. This is what they said.  

I totally understand that I can't have someone to be there always reply my over worry with explanation provides. I know it is annoying that I always try to find meaning in every single words you say. I am sorry that I always turn our conversation into a hard one. Being someone who always overthinks I am overwhelmed with anxiety, however I can be stopped easily despite the mind continuously play tricks on me. I could be calm down without much effort, just assure me that the things that I am worrying is not going to happen and tell me that I'll be fine. Alternatively, bring me good foods. In any event the latter is not working well, it means that I am very very very upset or emotionally agitated.