what if.

I believe we all have that 'what if' person at some point in our lifes. You have a strong belief that he is THE ONE and how better your life would be with him. He usually made an unexpected impact that left an imprint not only in your life but also in your heart. You can't help but keep thinking that things would be so much different with him being your partner. Despite the fact that he is quite someone who has been there in your life, either as a friend that you only meet up once a year or as an intimate that you share almost everything. oh well, the latter only happens if you are lucky enough and the situation allows you could say whatever you want including your wild thoughts. However, you always know where to draw the line.

Your imagination is leading you come to any and every assumptions that you possibly could. At the same time you constantly remind yourself that nothing will ever works with this person. You probably don't even know how it happens but when you do think of them, he will be there for every single moment unless and until there's something take away your attention. and he disappeared without you realising, again. It is a cycle, a bad cycle that happens once in a blue month. You are wondering, how a person could catch you by surprise every single time without missing once. but never ever had you got an answer to that question. 

He is only the 'what if'. He is your secret, a beautiful secret.